It's been a while

I don't like being in the first line out on the ice for the first game at the start of a broomball tournament. There is that moment right before the ball drops when the excitement of anticipation for the day is suddenly replaced with butterflies in my stomach. It passes quickly, but for just a second, I'm nervous. It's so much easier to jump out on the ice to sub on the fly once play has begun. I feel like that tonight, as Charlie approaches his first day of Kindergarten tomorrow. For a couple of weeks now, we've been buying school supplies, trying on new school clothes, planning out schedules and talking to Charlie about what to expect. Now I'm waiting for that ball to drop. I wonder who his friends will be, will he eat his lunch, will he like his teacher. And will he stay out of trouble. I told myself that I'd catch up on this blog before school started. That way, it would be easier to keep up again once the excitement of Kindergarten began. And here I am, like the night before final exams, sneaking in an entry. Nothing will replace the last year and a half of entries, but I've kept notes on some things I'd like to share. For now, I'm going to set this aside and get to bed early. Tomorrow is a big day. I've always wanted to keep up this diary of sorts so that I would not forget the little things that make me smile, the kids' milestones, and the challenges we've overcome. But rather than agonize over documenting the past, I am going to focus on tomorrow. I want to be fully engaged for my little guy, who is not so little anymore. I'm so excited for all the new things he's going to learn, the new relationships he'll make, and the way he'll challenge me to keep up.